Sunday, March 09, 2008

the injury blahs

I have been suffering the injury blahs this week. I've had enough now. I'm bored with myself. The weather is glorious, spring is erupting and I want to be out there! Running, not walking. Pain-free, not limping. Remember when I lost my mojo? I take it back - all of it. I really really really want to get out there. Now.

But I can't. I've now had a week of non-activity (apart from my 15 minute walk to work and back and general day-to-day stuff). I've had a deep tissue massage. I've been doing my exercises. I can't say that I'm pain-free. I'm still not. Sometimes, for no apparent reason, both knees still hurt. I think that what my physio will say is that until I significantly start strengthening my adductors (which, with daily exercise, should start being noticeable about 4-6 weeks from starting them) I will continue to feel this pain. I know I know. Patience. A little at a time. I'm seeing him on Thursday and I hope that he will tell me to start running again, albeit slowly and carefully (he mentioned walking 4:30 mins, then running .30 minute for 30 minutes total). On the other hand, I will tell him that, in all honestly, the knee pain has not completely disappeared yet so maybe he will recommend more time off.

However, something has to change. My attitude. I have worked hard at being positive, as seeing this as an opportunity to focus on other things, to make this a moment to realise that things such as core strength etc. are really crucial. But dammit - I just really really really really want to run!

I don't think I realised, until the last 2 weeks, how much running was part of my routine. It's how I think of things when I go travelling (where will I run?), it's how I plan my year (which marathons will I run), it's how I catch up with certain friends (Sally) and mostly, it's how I feel good about myself every single day.

However - I know that I've been throwing a pity-party and that is, when all's said and done, pathetic. So I'm grabbing myself by the shoulders and saying "enough". When you actually bore yourself with your whingeing, you really know you've gone too far. I'm there.

So - I will stick to the exercises. I'm going to add some cardiovascular exercises this week - Shirley suggested I swim with a pullbuoy and hoo-ha - that will be good for my bingo wings don't you think? My husband now realises just how unpleasant I can be when I don't run and so has told me that once or twice a week he's fine getting up with the kids and taking them to school so I can go to the pool and swim. He is ABSOLUTELY not a morning person so that really is telling you something about how nice he is and just how unpleasant I can be. So pullbuoy swimming, careful elliptical training and my core exercises should hopefully, eventually, put me in a position where I can return to running stronger and wiser. There is always hoping, right?

Finally - I have found some silver lining in all these clouds. 2 years or so ago I took a course in ChiRunning with Danny Dreyer in London which was fantastic . Danny is an inspirational man and his techniques make a lot of sense. I did not find it easy and have obviously let things slip in the past few years. However, I now have a major impetus (i.e injury) to wish to learn to improve my form. I am heading out to the bay area in April to help my best friend celebrate her 40th and it just so happens that one of the best ChiRunning trainers lives in the town where I'll be staying. So I've booked 2 hours of private lessons with him and that is really something I'm looking forward to. So another thing I can do in my time off from running is to start working on the postures and exercises on the ChiRunning DVD.

Finally, finally - I am really hoping that Maritza, Jen and I can hook up for a run while I'm near San Francisco. Although I'm on holiday my days are packed and I think I'm making it difficult for these 2 busy, dynamic running bloggers to fit me in but I hope we can make it and I can blog about it.

So all in all there's plenty to look forward to - I just have to get on with the challenges in the short term. Thank you all for your continued feedback and support - it helps more than you realise!

16 comments:

Jade Lady said...

Oh Petra, it must be tough - I'm not as big into running as you, but I know that if I don't get regular exercise, I'm not a nice person to say the least.

I also found Chi Running a few years ago, and thanks to Danny's book and DVD, I was able to complete my training for a marathon with a PR. Needless to say, I'm now a firm believer of Chi Running too! Have a great trip!

Adam Tinkoff said...

Petra, Get out there and walk mindfully. Chi Walking. Danny's other book. Don't miss the glory of Spring. Don't get caught in your ego.

Susan said...

Wow, P, I could copy/paste this into my blog and it would be right on target.

Maddy said...

I'm sorry that you are blue, but it does sound like you have a good plan for kicking the blahs to the curb and getting some cardio in (even if it's not the the kind you really want).

Keep at it and you will be ready to run! I know it!

Jade Lady said...

Petra, it's interesting, as i found a video you uploaded in February via your RSS feed (a mother's job), but for some reason, it no longer appears as a post in your blog. I'm curious to know what happened tot his post?

CewTwo said...

Petra, As soon as I check with Family, I am probably going to register for the Chicago Marathon. I want you to be one of the first to know.
I will blog about it soon.

Jade Lady said...

Hey Petra, I saw your comment on my blog - I'm wondering what's going on - I can see the video, and so can another person here in US. Can you try again?

MarathonChris said...

Petra, it has to be tough not running. I think your attitude is fantastic....just hang in there. You have a good plan, and you are going to get there!!

So many cool plans, too!

Keep that mojo!

MarathonChris said...

Petra, it has to be tough not running. I think your attitude is fantastic....just hang in there. You have a good plan, and you are going to get there!!

So many cool plans, too!

Keep that mojo!

lizzie lee said...

Petra, hang in there. Think on all the time you run and the time you don't and the latter is really irrelevant. Take it easy. Patience is a virtue....

Be positive

ShirleyPerly said...

Hang in there, Petra! You're just going through one of those rough spells that everyone (including me) gets when they get injured. I'm glad to hear your husband is being so supportive. In the big scheme of things, i.e., running for the rest of your life, this is but a small setback. Keep the faith!!

peter said...

Running with friends in faraway places is so much fun! Running three different times with three different friends was the highlight of my recent long distance trip.

jen said...

Petra, I can so relate. Everything you are feeling is completely justified and normal.

When I was injured a year ago and didn't run for about 8 weeks, I was very frusterated. But a couple of very cool things came of it. First, I developed a whole new appriciation for running. Like you, I realized that it is a very important part of my life, and I will do whatever I can to keep it in my life forever. If I never ran another race, another fast mile, I would be ok if I could just RUN. A year later, I still don't take it for granted. :) Second, I became a triathlete. :) Sounds like you could be one step closer with the swimming...

Defintely looking forward to seeing you next month. I'll be returning from Boston and the race there, so I may not run or will need to go really easy, but I will be off work and will for sure come meet up. :) Yay!!

Ps. Those shorts in my pic were actually new balance- but I think I need to go to Target now!!

IrishBlue said...

Petra, sorry you're so down. Who knew not running could be so much harder than running? ;-)

It's true you don't realize how much running means to you (not just physically but mentally) until you can't do it for a while.

Hang in there lady. Your day will come...soon I hope.

Hugs,
Melisa

CewTwo said...

Well, Petra...

I made my flight and hotel reservations! I am on my way to Chicago to run a marathon!

You may have the blahs right now, but you are still inspiring others to run! Thanks!

Now to get down to the brass tacks of training... Higdon, you say? I used his traing for the last half I ran last year!

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